Again and Again

Again and Again

© 2016 Mollie Pearce McKibbon

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I do what I shouldn’t do

And that makes God sad.

I go where I shouldn’t go

And, then, I feel bad.

I say what I shouldn’t say

And cause someone pain.

O God, why do I do this

Again and again?

 

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Like a wind-blown weather vane

I twist east and west,

With no help to guide me choose

I try what seems best.

But, I still search night and day

And always in vain.

O God, why do I do this

Again and again?

 

 

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No more will I wander far

From God’s helping hand

And struggle and flounder

In sin’s sinking sand.

I want God’s eternal promise

More than worldly gain

So I’ll follow Lord Jesus

Again and again.

A Children’s Hymn


Listening to Jesus

A Friend of Jesus

© 2012 Mollie Pearce McKibbon

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I am a friend to Jesus

‘Cause he’s a friend to me.

Friends stick up for each other

Whatever the cost may be.

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Chorus:

Sometimes I’m scared like Peter.

Sometimes I’m angry like Saul.

Sometimes I doubt like Thomas,

But Jesus forgives me all.

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I am a friend for Jesus

‘Cause he is a friend for me.

Friends will stand by each other,

Wherever their friend may be.

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I am friend of Jesus

No matter what others say.

He ‘s promised not to leave me,

And come find me if I stray.

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If others could hear Jesus’

If only their eyes could see,

Then everyone would know him

And call him their friend , like me.

A Church Anniversary Hymn

Church front doorHere is a hymn I wrote one year for our church anniversary.

Once Again We Meet

© 2004 Mollie Pearce McKibbon

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Once again we meet together.

One again our voices raise

As a family forever

To God alone we sing praise!

 

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When you’re weary and you stumble

If upon you knees you fall,

Every heart that turns to Jesus,

Brother, sister, we will call.

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Stone and mortar, beam and rafter,

Will ,like mortal flesh, decay,

But our joyous songs and laughter

From God’s ears won’t fade away.

 

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As we celebrate beginnings,

Knowing God goes on and one,

In our hearts there is no ending

To Salvation’s triumph song!

Ask Jesus In

 

Ask Jesus In

©2011 Mollie McKibbon

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When Jesus comes knocking at the door of your heart,

Ask him in.

When Jesus comes knocking at the door of your heart,

Ask him in.

Don’t sit alone in the cold and the dark,

Moping and hoping for a tiny spark.

Welcome him.  Welcome him.

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When Jesus come knocking at the door of your soul,

Ask him in.

When Jesus comes knocking at the door of your soul,

Ask him in.

Never sit and wait for the death knell toll,

Open the door and he will make you whole.

Welcome him.  Welcome him.

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When Jesus bids you come by his Holy Spirit,

Answer him.

When Jesus bids you come by his Holy Spirit,

Answer him.

His voice is calling you ever near it.

Pray that you’re listening so you will hear it.

Follow him!  Follow him!

Adeline’s War of 1812 Journal: Conclusion – Part 3

©2012 Mollie Pearce McKibbon

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Thursday, August 31, 1815,

Dear Janetta,

I woke up in the small hours of the morning yesterday.  There was a flickering glow on the horizon I at first took for early sunrise,but then, with a growing sense of alarm, I sprang from the bed and went to the window.  An orange-red stain spread across the horizon and I realized with horror, that our cornfield to the south was ablaze. 

“Fire, fire in the cornfield!” I shouted to Father and Henry.

I grabbed my shawl and felt my way down the staircase.  Father came dashing out of the lower bedroom buttoning his trousers and calling for Henry and William who had stayed overnight.  Elizabeth and Evvy soon joined us.  I stayed with Vicky and Charlie who were sleeping soundly through all the commotion, while everyone else grabbed hastily made torches and ran towards the growing glow. 

Everyone knew what to do and soon neighbours were joining the firefighting throng.  I knew their efforts would be towards making another fire to fight the one already raging and I prayed that everyone would stay safe.  Although the corn had already been harvested, the stocks were dried and perfect fuel for the fierce dragon breath of the raging flames.  I stood by the window watching the growing inferno through the trees. 

Gradually, I became aware of a foreboding of another danger, one much closer than the fire. 

“Purty, ain’t it?” said a raspy voice behind me.

My worst fears were realized.  Bourke was not an imagined terror.  He was real and he was probably the cause of the massive curtain of smoke hanging over the cornfield and advancing into the next crop. 

“Yer lookin’ a bit peak’d,” Bourke sneered.  “Scared I ‘spect. Yer should be. Time for me to get my own back.”

I slowly backed towards the door, thinking only of the two sleeping tots upstairs, but as I reached the open door, I heard Vicky’s voice at the top of the stairs.

“Mama, Mama where are you?”  Vicky’s sweet little head with it’s tousled curls appeared.  She was wearing an anxious expression.

“Auntie Addy, where’s Mama?” she called out.

“She’s just gone out with your Papa for a short time.  Go back to bed, Vicky!” I replied.

“Well now, ain’t this just purfect!” said Bourke with a mirthless chuckle.  “I hadn’t counted on more than one captive, but …”

“Vicky can do you no harm,” I pleaded.

“She will go back to bed and sleep.”

What I said was truthful, but the advancing fire worried me.  I was responsible for the children’s safety.  The air was becoming acrid and some ashes drifted over the barn.  In the distance I could hear the shouts of the fire fighters and above them the sound of roaring and crackling flames.  If I cried out for help no one would hear me above the sound of the fire.

Bourke seemed to read my mind. “ Oh I reckon they’ll be busy for sometime and by the by when they git back, yer’ll be long gone.”

Bourke sat on one of the settles in front of the cold fireplace.  I placed myself at the foot of the stairs to the upper floor, between Bourke and the children. 

“This here is what I’d call a derlema,” he said as he sat with his musket pointed at my stomach.  He looked bedraggled, dirty and disheveled.  He was still wearing the American army garb, but it was worn and it was obviously not in army condition.  He had a makeshift metal brace around the leg I had wounded and when he saw me staring at it he laughed.

“Yeah, that’s yer doin’.” he muttered. “Nice bit of handiwork, it is!  Now I get ter hobble round and beg fer a livin’, huh?  Not Jake Bourke.  I ain’t beggin’ from no man.  I take what I want and  I fancy havin’ a slave.”

He suddenly sprang from the settle, dropped his musket and grabbed my arm.  I screamed and the two children began crying.  Startled by the children, Bourke dropped my arm and started up the stairs, but I shoved him backwards with all my might and he fell.  It wasn’t enough to injure him, but it gave me enough time to rush past him out the door.  I ran as fast as I could in the direction of the barn where Father kept his musket  thinking Jake would run after me, but when I reached the barn, I realized he hadn’t followed me.  Instead he had gone up the stairs and captured Vicky and Charlie. 

The smoke in the air was making it hard to breathe.  Vicky and Charlie were both crying and coughing and wriggling in Bourke’s arms.  All I could think was to save the children, I had to shoot that musket but I knew loading it was impossible. 

“Put the children down,” I begged Bourke. “If you let the children go, I will go with you wherever you want.”

“I don’t believe yer,” Bourke snarled.  “Yer a lyin’ bitch just itch’n ter kill me.”  He held the children tighter and they screamed.

It was at that moment, I heard another muffled voice from the barn. 

“Adeline, go get the children.  I won’t let Bourke hurt you.”

I gave no reply, but dropped the musket  and walked resolutely towards Bourke.  I was under no delusion he would not harm Vicky and Charlie.  Somehow, I had to distract him so that Robert could do whatever he had to do to rid us of the monster Bourke had become.

“Bourke,” I said with trembling voice, “You win.  I will go with you and be your slave.  Just let me calm the little ones.”

Bourke stepped back towards the house, holding them even more tightly, until I was in fear of him choking Charlie and breaking Vicky’s wrist. 

“No, first yer got to get the horses.  They’re hobbled behind the house.  Yer bring ‘em to me and I’ll give yer the tots.”

I went to do as I was told.  My heart was hammering in my chest and I was praying to God to help Robert find a way to protect us.  I found the two horses, unfettered their hooves and led them back to Bourke.  He finally loosened his grip on Charlie, who by this time was inconsolable and pushed Vickie towards me. 

I knelt on the ground and hugged Vicky, telling her that Elizabeth would soon return. 

“You have to be a big girl, Vicky, and go upstairs.  Take Charlie into bed with you and wait there until you see your mama or papa.” 

I kissed her cheek and then I took Charlie from Bourke, soothed him as best I could and led both children up the stairs, with Bourke following close behind.  I grabbed my reticule and put on my shoes.  He directed me to leave everything else and go mount the horse.  I went back down the stairs, hearing the children sobbing behind in the bed.

Outside, the smoke was beginning to clear a bit.  The fire was losing its fervour and the family and neighbours would soon be returning hot, sooty and exhausted.  I mounted the horse Bourke brought to me and as I did I heard Bourke gasp, saw him drop the reins and slide to the ground at the feet of his horse, an arrow protruding from his back.

White Wolf and Robert emerged from opposite sides of the barn, White Wolf to turn the body of my persecutor over and Robert to rush to my horse who was rearing. 

Robert calmed the horse and helped me dismount.  I must admit I clung to him in unashamed relief and gratitude.   He picked me up as if I were no weight at all and carried me in to the settle where I held on to him even tighter while I cried.

“Oh Adeline, I do love you so,” he whispered. “I would never let anyone or anything hurt you or Charlie, don’t you know that?” 

I couldn’t speak.  I just clung to him and shivered.  At that very moment, Elizabeth and Evvy rushed into the house, alarm all over their soot streaked faces.  Robert explained what had happened and they both ran up the stairs to look after the children. 

Father, Henry and William were not far behind and Robert patiently explained what had happened all over again. 

“White Wolf has been trailing Bourke for a few days.  The O’Meara’s didn’t want to be helpful, but White Wolf can be persuasive.  It was Bourke who set the corn ablaze.  Is it all extinguished now?”

Father nodded and shook Robert’s hand .  He embraced me and went outside to help White Wolf put Bourke’s body into the Randall cart.  Dead or not, he would be taken back to Prescott for disposal.  Henry and William embraced me also and followed Father outside. 

Robert knelt at my feet and said, “Dear Adeline, please give me the honour of…”

I didn’t let him finish.  I hugged him tightly to me and said, “ yes, yes, yes.”

And that, Dear Janetta, is all I can tell you.  I will be Mrs. Robert Randall next month when the circuit rider comes back this way.  Charlie will have a new father and Andrew too.  God be praised.

Amen,

Adeline.

An excerpt from Evvy’s journal:

Thistledown Farm

Saturday, September 16, 1815

Adeline and Robert Randall were married today here at the farm.  They will be living here until Robert, Henry and William finish building a cabin on the land that Robert’s father gave him.  One day, Blueberry Creek Farm will belong to Charlie.  In the meantime, Charlie is growing fast and he loves chasing Pirate around.  Pirate doesn’t move as quickly as he once did.  The villain, Jacob Bourke, hit him with a log to put him out of the way when he set the fire.  Now Pirate walks with a limp, but he is just as playful as a pup.

Lady Persephone Norris, Charles Houghton’s sister, wrote a letter to tell us that they had arrived safely in England and that Matthew and Charlie (Adam) have been made very welcome by her two daughters.  Her husband is “delighted” to have two sons now and the boys are growing fast.  She did remark that “Charlie” must resemble the Price side of the family, but it is easily seen that they are brothers as they get along so famously.  She thanked Addy for being so generous and reassured her she has made an unselfish and courageous decision.  The Brigadier General Ambrose Houghton has not met the boys as yet, but plans to visit for a fortnight at Christmas.  He has already enrolled their names in the best schools and has ambitious plans for them.  Adeline cried when she read the letter, but Charlie came over and cuddled up to her and she couldn’t help but smile.

I am not waiting for Captain Everett Houghton to return.  He was charming, but not suited for the life I prefer.  Hector has asked for my hand and I have accepted.  Next summer I will be Mrs. Hector Hamilton and we will be living in Johnstown, in Hector’s family home.  Elizabeth, William and Vicky will move into the house with Father and Henry.  When Henry turns eighteen he will be living at William’s acreage.  Everything is changing, but Father is getting frailer and his war injuries are causing him no little grief. He needs Williams help and one day William will inherit Thistledown Farm.

Trade across the border is back to normal and we are glad to have more of the goods that we enjoyed before the war.  Mother would be so happy to know Adeline has remarried.  She is the bravest and best sister a girl could wish.  Today, when she and Robert stood before the circuit rider, and exchanged their vows, I knew she was thinking of her little one far away in England, but she smiled up at Robert with love and pride.

We are richly blessed.

Evvy 

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Adeline’s War of 1812 Journal: Conclusion Part 2

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Sunday, August 20, 1815

Dear Janetta,

At last I am able to hold a quill pen in hand and write down the pain in my heart.  It is very hard to bear the loss of my family. Mother’s passing has left us all bereft, but I owe immeasurable gratitude to my dear friend, Regina Randall, who stayed by my side in my illness until I was no longer in danger of dying.  The little cabin became a temporary hospital for Mother and I while she nursed us. Sadly, Mother did not survive the swamp fever* but although she refused the medicine powder** Regina expressed the opinion that Mother’s illness was too far advanced for it to have been effective.  I believe Robert’s mother is perhaps attempting to salve my feelings.

I have moved back into the main house to assist Evvy.  Regina believes I am on the way to complete recovery and no longer pose any danger of passing on my illness to others.  Robert has been a great help to Father and Henry, aiding them in bringing in the grain harvest and Arthur has transported it to the nearest grist mill. 

I must admit I dreaded going back into the house and seeing the cradles where our two little boys slept their first few months.  Robert removed the cradles and stored them in the barn for me, but Evvy insisted the trundle bed stay in case Arthur brought Adam to visit from time to time.  I asked Henry to burn my night clothes and the bed linens from my illness. Evvy agreed it might be for the best so I will need to employ my time in sewing new ticking and a new night dress.  Evvy set up the old wash tub filled with warm water for me to bathe in the summer kitchen.  It felt so good to be clean and she gave me one of Mother’s lawn frocks to wear.

“Arthur and Robert are coming by to visit this afternoon,” she said with a smile. “I am sure you want to appear at your best.”  Then she added softly, “They are bringing Adam too.  I hope you won’t be upset.”

My eyes filled with tears, but I shook my head.  Life must go on and by then my two boys were headed over the Atlantic to their new home in England.  I prayed to God they would have a safe voyage and a long, happy life in their new home. Persephone had promised they would be well-loved and cared-for and in a letter, Captain Houghton had promised he would look out for them and write often of their progress.  They are young enough not to remember me as they grow and that is for the best.

I was setting the table for tea when the Randall wagon arrived.  Evvy went out to greet Robert and Arthur and I heard her cry of happy surprise, but simply thought Regina might have come too.

Robert entered the house with Adam in his arms.  At least, I was certain it was Adam until I heard a familiar voice calling, “Mama, mama…”  I turned in utter shock to see my darling Charlie with his arms out to me.  I ran to him and hugged him in Robert’s arms.  Robert smiled from ear to ear as he placed my sweet little boy in my arms.

“I don’t understand,” I sobbed, “did something happen to the ship?  Did Persephone change her mind?  Where is Andrew?”

Arthur entered behind Robert and bid me sit down so he could explain. 

“The ship is on its way to England and Andrew and Adam are on it. Persephone only knows she has two little boys with her just as you promised. Charlie was crying for you as soon as we left the house.  Andrew and Adam were happily asleep.  When we arrived in Prescott, William and I took the two sleeping boys while Robert tried to soothe Charlie.  Persephone made the assumption that Adam and Andrew were the twins and I …” Arthur cleared his throat and continued… “well, it occurred to me that this was the solution to my concerns about the O’Meara’s getting hold of Adam, and you would still have one of your sons here with you.  I hope you will forgive me, Adeline.”

Robert looked sternly at Arthur. “I was non-plussed.” he said, “and I wanted to go to Persephone and Captain Houghton with Charlie, but William, Arthur and I talked it over and we decided that perhaps it was for the best. You have lost so much, Addy, and have been so ill, I couldn’t bear the thought that you would be completely bereft.  So we brought Charlie back to our home and waited until today, until we knew you were fully recovered before bringing him back to you.”

My head was reeling with the implications of what Arthur had done.  Adam would be raised thinking that he was Brigadier General Houghton’s grandson and Andrew’s twin.  And Andrew, would he be lost without his twin?  Would he mourn him or would he grow up thinking Adam was his brother too?  Charlie had been denied his birthright, and yet, Charlie was here with me and close to his father.  I wrestled with my conscience for many days and then realized that no purpose would come of trying to right the wrong.  I would bring up Charlie as best I could and provide him with the piece of property my parents had given me and Charles.  If he worked hard, Charlie could establish himself in this new country and his  father would be proud to call him his son. The only real cloud on our horizon is Jacob Bourke.

Grateful to God, but still anxious,

Adeline

*Malaria

**Quinine (this drug was used to treat malaria until a derivative was produced in the 20th century)

Adeline’s War of 1812 Journal: Conclusion (part One)

© 2012 Mollie Pearce McKibbon

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An entry from Evvy Price’s journal:

Sunday, August 6, 1815

Our lives have been so much fraught with fear and anxiety these last few weeks I hardly know quite where to begin.  Adeline has been truly at death’s door during this time.  Her condition has gone back and forth between raging fever and shivering cold. William rode to Fort Wellington to fetch the army doctor, but he was unable to come, being quite busy treating an outbreak of dysentery.  However, he suggested that Mrs. Randall was quite capable of treating Adeline with blood-letting and lots of heat. Mrs. Randall was horrified with this suggestion. We were quite at loss as to what to do until Arthur overheard us discussing Adeline’s condition. 

“This sounds much like the swamp fever* that many of our troops suffered from in Louisiana.” he said. “  The army doctor there issued us all a package of powder** to add to our grog.  Indians extract it from the bark of a tropical tree and it seemed to work.” He arose immediately and rode back to the Randall homestead to search it out.

Mother was not certain.  Mrs. Randall replied she felt barbaric practices such as blood-;letting would only weaken Adeline further and adding more heat to the already hot cabin would not lower the fever.  She said the Indians had more sensible treatments for many illnesses than the most modern practices of English-trained doctors. 

Arthur and Robert rode back to the farm together.  Robert was very anxious and had to be restrained from going to Adeline’s bedside.  Arthur pressed the package of powder into his mother’s hands and urged her to add it to Adelaide’s broth.  He assured her that he had seen these symptoms leading up to the Battle of New Orleans and urged her to waste no time in treating the disease. 

We had been anxiously watching Charlie and Andrew, as well as little Adam, for possible signs of the same illness, but they seemed content to play and sleep together, only calling for comfort at meals.  We were very relieved to satisfy their thirst with cups of boiled and cooled milk, to which, happily Charlie ‘s now accustomed and Adam, of necessity has taken.  Arthur loves his little lad, but he finds it difficult to look after him now because he is so much more active.  He often expresses his frustration of leaving most of the care of Adam to his mother and father, but he has no confidence in allowing his father-in-law to take it on.  He clearly intends Mr. O’Meara no more contact with his grandson. 

“My darling Kathleen was the best of them, that’s certain,” he told us one day. “I want Adam to make her proud. I don’t trust the lot of them.  Her own family treated her like some maid, aye, worse than a maid by times.”

Oh my, I am that weary.  I will finish this account tomorrow. Just now I will stop in and see how things are with Mother before I go to bed.  She’s been feeing poorly herself, though I expect it’s just the heat.

Evvy

Sunday, August 14, 1815,

We buried Mother in the orchard yesterday beside Victoria.  Now they are together in heaven.  Mother come down with the same fever Adeline has been fighting, but she refused to take any of the powder Arthur brought, and even the same powder Captain Everett Houghton left for us for fear that the babes might become ill or Adeline suffer a relapse.  We tried to put it into her broth, but she refused any, even in her delirium. Father is broken-hearted.

Evvy

*now known as malaria

** Quinine was used to treat malaria until a chemical derivative was developed in the 20th century.

A Wedding Hymn

On This Their Wedding Day

©2003 Mollie Pearce McKibbon
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Lord, a blessing now we pray

On the wedding pair today.

All their hopes and dreams combine

As their hands and hearts entwine.

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Chorus:

Lord God, we praise You.

Lord God,  we praise You.

Lord  God, we praise You

On this their wedding day.

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God of Love, we ask You now

Sanctify their wedding vow.

May they always seek your grace;

Give your Word an honoured place.

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May their love be strong and true,

Trusting all their cares to You.

Bless them ever, Lord, we pray;

As they serve You day by day.

 

Fright Night

Fright Night

©2003 Mollie Pearce McKibbon

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T’was the latest night in October

When my head was filled with dread

And the house was silent as a tomb,

As the wind round the chimney sped.

Branches scratched on the window pane

As the wind moaned and cried.

I shrank back into the shadows

To shelter from the horrors outside.

I thought my hour had truly come

As the clock ticked loudly on

But when I cracked open the window blinds

The ghouls and ghosts seemed gone.

Until somewhere through the smothering fog

The advancing shapes of two undead

Heard the unearthly howl of a dog.

“We’re back, we’re back”,

Was their ominous shout

As they made their way through the withering cold.

I knew there’d be no keeping them out,

No door would ever hold.

I waited with thundering pulse

As they trod over the sill

Dragging their plunder into my house

To gorge on whatever they willed.

Then the house was silent again

When their appetites were fed,

And I sighed with relief and gratitude

As I tucked those two little ghouls in bed.

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